I am 54. Was diagnosed in aug 2007 with bipolar. have had at least 5 psych hospitalizations. IQ of 131. 4 years ago when I had my only manic psychotic episode I was convinced I was autistic. As I got better I stopped thinking about being autistic. I have developed a support network for myself through mental health ( Canada) and attend mood disorder support group. I have recently been reading Tony Attwood etc and the more I read the more I am inclined to think I have aspergers. I want to talk to my psychiatrist about this next week but I am afraid that he or others will dismiss me and think I am "crazy". Here is one tiny example of my thinking....a couple of days ago my friend asked me how I enjoyed the sunshine. I said "oh was it sunshining out?" and she laughed. then I thought about it and said"oh it must have been cause I was wearing my sunglasses.I was very focused on other things and couldnt remember if it had been sunny. God...did any of that make any sense? Ok I'll stop now. could go on and on about how hard it is to live with my mind.
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