Hello, here I am still, a bit worse for wear and tear! The way this thing manifest for me is most frustrating as I have the ability to write children's books ( in truth sans arrogance ) with my verbal skills I could write in a myriad ways! Yet I am closed off, behind walls that no one sees! There are NO advocates, doctors who treat symptoms not the syndrome! Yes the Lexapro helps my nerves, indeed the Klonopin helps stave off the barrage issues that set off panic attacks ( the melt downs of my childhood explained!) although I LOATHE it and want a better alternative! Yet often I still feel like some alien being that no one quite seems to know what I am about, I can be among my fellow humanoids yet I am perpetually ALONE! Yes indeed here I am still in an invisible box with a broken life compass, a so called verbal super genius who has NO idea ( nary a clue!!) as to how to get THERE!
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