I'm new to the group, I have only had my problem since february of this year. One minute I'm fine, the next my heart is pounding out of my chest. It is the scariest thing I have ever had to deal with. I am seriously afraid it's going to kill me if I don't get the implant, But at the same time. The quality of my life is not all that great. I have one more year and then my son will be out on his own, in fact he will be in another country. I have a great cardiologist and I know he will do what ever is in his power to save me. I'm just not sure that would be the best thing at this point. I would rather have quality than quantity any day. I know this must sound selfish and it is. It's just that other than my kids who will live on the other side of the plannet. I really have no one. I just can't go it alone anymore.
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