i have people that depend on me daily to take care of them. one is a special needs person and one a child. the rest just expect me to do everything for them all the time and thats why i joined the coda community to help me with this. well my phobia is now that when people get close to me they must have some alterial motive for doing so and i completely block them out of my life. i now have phobia of letting people get close to me! i dont care if they are old friends or new friends, they are gone before they can use me. i know it is in my head and these people mean no harm to me and are only trying to help me. i guess i have been used for so long that is the only reason someone would want to be close to me. like i said, just another stupid phobia but it adds to my anxiety and depression. just goes around in a circle for me with no end in site. thanks for reading, love judy
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