I am trying AGAIN to get a job, the whole time i am going through the normal anxiety attacks! What if's in my mind! I want to work and get out, get a life ya know? I hate this thing where i look at the 4 walls and drive myself crazy sittin at home by myself! I just dont know how to do it, i used to work full time and it didnt bother me, now hell i cant fill out an application without feeling like i am going crazy! What is wrong with me? I got hired managing a convience store which i have done a few times before and frankly am pretty good at, went twice couldnt go back, stayed in bed 3 days, couldnt get up, felt as if the ceiling was closing in on me, like i would fall if i went to go anywhere but the bathroom! I wish i knew what was wrong with me! I want to go out be like i used to be,but i am nothing like i uesd to be! I am scared, this is just filling out an application, going for an interview well you know the rest..... I cant understand how a person go's from working and thriving in the work field to me now! Any one have any ideas on what to do, i feel like i am falling apart at the seems and there is nothing i can do about it! Just one thing after another, like there is no end to my road of distruction! At this point in my life i have just had it with ME!!!!!
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