I am a 33 year old female that experienced my first panic/anxiety attack two years ago.....2 months after giving birth to my daughter. Since then, I have felt the worst in my life! The worst part is is that I feel that I am missing out on the lives of my children. And that just pisses me off! :o) After my first attack (which happened while driving w/ all 3 kids) & a visit to the ER (which ruled out heart troubles) I went to my general practitioner & he prescribed Xanax. It made me feel horrible at the dosage I was taking. It actually put me into a depression. He then prescribed Lexapro which really messed w/ my mind, moods & overall anxiousness. After awhile of just taking Xanax (& being tested for sinus issues w/ a CT scan) I started to feel better so I went off my medication. Then, I had a huge relapse (a year after the first attack) & went back on my medication, took a month off of work & then started seeing a psychologist. I also had to have a MRI/CT done on my back & neck & found out that I have arthritis in my neck & slipped discs & compressed discs in my lower back. No fun adding to the pain & worry. I started PT on my neck & back & really started to feel better. And then, of course, a month ago, a HUGE relapse. And I haven''t been able to climb back out of this one! I had another attack while driving, of course, and had to call 911 for assistance. I felt so dumb afterwards. Since that day, I have been miserable. I just "push" myself to "get through" each day. Physically I am overwhelmed with every pain & ache which amplifies my anxiety. I have started a new treatment of medications for headaches & the neurologist is having a MRI done to rule out anything else. Since the last attack, my anxiety is horrible. My TMJ is extremely painful. I have this not-so-fun new body tremors all the time. I am afraid to go anywhere alone. I hate being home alone with the kids for fear of something happening to me. i worry about every ache and pain. I feel in a daze and fog all day right now. And to top it all off....I have vertigo too. Will this EVERY stop?
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