i had my 1st one 4mnths ago. i think it was sparked by an overwhelming amount of stress in my life nowadays. i am always the one who gives advice and take on other people's problems..i've been that way for most of my life. now, i think its taken its tole on me. after my first anxiety attack i've been back to the hospital two more times. i've had about 3 since my last visit to the er. i refuse to take medication because i dont want to have to rely on them..however, im not sure if can go on, not knowing when another one will reappear.. im lost, and i am doubting my abilities. i've always been the headstrong, independent one who others come to when in need. i feel weak now and dis-oriented. how can i regain focus? when will this end?
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