i can't feel this way anymore. i have tried medication and i am so sensitive that i get all the side effects and i feel like a zombie. i'm gonna try again just because i can't handle this. it has subsided tremendously but there is still this icky feeling lingering and i feel like being on this website is almost perpetuating it because it makes me feel hopeless. i'm glad that there are other people out there, but it makes me feel like this feeling will always be there. i don't want this. i've never dealt with anything like this before. i am so depressed and no one in my life seems to understand what i feel. they tell me to calm down, but even when i'm calm i feel uneasy. i have learned to go with it and most people don't notice i feel this way until i eventually break down because i am sick of it. does anyone recover? we are going to try to have kids in a year or so and i am so terrified. not about anything but my anxiety. how will i be through a pregnancy? what if i have an attack while i am out with a baby? will the stress of it all put me through what i have just been going through? i know i am just kinda egging it on, but at one point i thought i was ok....i was gonna stop going to therapy and i learned to control my anxiety and i was doing better than i had in a long time and out of nowhere i get hit with the worst anxiety i have ever had...when is this going to end?
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