Ok, I just ate a ham and cheese corsant(sp?) like an hour ago. and since then, i have been working about not getting sick(vomiting). Its weird. Its because of the fear of getting sick, I dont eat often and when i do, its small so in case I do get sick, its just a little bit. I know its not an eating disorder. I mean, i don't like my weight but i try to help it by doing yoga and running. What is it? is it the anxiety? is it the depression? do i have a subconcoius eating disorder or somthing? whats going on? its driving me crazy!! its all i think about now.
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