I am decompensating fast. I haven't written much and am confuised about what I do on this board? Anyway, I need a new home FAST. My family is falling apart and I'm going with them. It's me (adult), my adult brother, and my mom and we all cannot live together, my mom is a doormat, and it hurts my heart to the core as I can't change that--she had a heart attack in Dec. and my brother who should be gone--he is a felon, steps all over her. She hates me, and I was gone for a year, I got stable, I was happier and now I put myself back at mom's, and am depressed again and have gained back a lot of weight. This sucks and I'm turning into the negative person my family is, I have got to get out of here---at first I had the panic attacks, still do unless I stay away from Starbucks, now it's just sadness, I have to move on and am terrified. I can't work, and only get Social Security benefits each month, I am grateful. What do I need to do? I am so sad and worried over all this. I have to change it and leave!
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