I thought I had my life all figured out. I have had persistant social anxiety and depression since 2001. My life is great, but I am pretty sure the depression is from having the social anxiety. I lost my nursing license due to anxiety. I was planning on going to graduate school for counseling but I do not qualify for more loans. I have a about 7 years of poor history due to anxiety and being asked to take medical leaves or fired for incompetence. I have applied for disability several times and was turned down. I am almost at a point, where I wonder if it is time to apply for disability. I just don't want to disappoint my husband because I am "messed up" and I do not want people to think that I am lazy and or have poor work ethic. It seems like the only thing I am good at is reading, writing, playing games, and listening to other people with anxiety disorders. What should I do know? When is it time to give up trying to work and apply for disability? How should I handle what others say? I am so tired of putting forth the most energy into forcing myself to go to work and endure anxiety ony to be let go anyway. I just feel like crying. Why did God give me a brain and so much potential if I am too messed up to use it? Idea's? Tips? Thoughts?
I have been in my new job for a month. I got let go at the old job due to reorganization.I never had a commute but now I do. The drive is over two hours a day but the drive doesn’t have much traffic overall.Everyone is nice but I don’t make friends easily and these people tend to stay to themselves. I’m not sure if making a friend or just being more comfortable over time would help.I work...
I am fighting for my 30 plus marriage. I have ASA and am having problems dealing with it. If you have any questions, let me know and I will answer them. I am an open book. If you have any suggestions on dealing with this I'm all ears. I truly love my wife and it's important to me that I can find the old me that she fell in love with. Thanks