I went to a concert last Saturday. It's the first one I had been to in years, the first one since my anxiety first started to take its toll. I'm very proud of myself for going and I'm very proud I made it through the concert. I thought I might have to leave at one point. When my anxiety gets really bad I feel my heartbeat, every single one, they pound in my chest so hard, and it becomes overwhelming. So anyways, I had that feeling and was getting ready to walk outside to breathe when I realized it was the bass I was feeling. It had been so long that I had forgot how you not only hear the music at concerts but feel it too. Because the feeling was similar I think my mind was translating that as me being anxious, but once I realized what was going on I kept telling myself that I was fine and my body was just confused and that I was going to have a good time to "show" myself that everything really was fine. I had a great time and I'm really proud of myself for sticking it out. I just wanted to share because most people in my personal life don't understand the true impact of anxiety, but more importantly they don't understand how important these milestones are to me, not as just one step, but as part of the bigger picture: taking my life back and putting the anxiety back in it's place :)
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