I feel so paincky today. I keep on going over things in my head again and again and again. I feel so alone right now and out of it. I can't relate to people my own age because I hate to party, get drunk and all that stuff and it is making me feel worse and worse. I feel like something is wrong with me! I can't get over this. Why can't I just find a good friend. Someone I can just call or vent to or just hang out with and not worry about them hating me for being different. I am sorry about posting this. I am just having a bad day now. Ugh.
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