The last two days the weather has been ghastly up here in the Northeast. Cold April showers have decided to extend into mid-May. And my mood has been equally ghastly the last two days with darkness and anxiety and work stress that seems out of proportion to reality. Clearly there there's a lot more inside that is affecting my mood than the outside weather. Health issues, fortunately "minor for now," which has involved visiting doctors, reminding me that I'm getting older, and my parents too are getting older and I'm feeling the stirrings of a deep panic about knowing that they will not be around forever. I know this mood will pass at is always does come and go. And maybe the sun will come out at some point. I hope you all are having a good start to the week.
In June, I am going to be going on a trip to Florida with my mom and brothers and we are getting there by plane and I'm really nervous about that. I've only flown on a plane one other time and I was 2 years old and I don't remember anything about it. The thought about being in a giant metal bird going who knows how high up into the air terrifies me. Also, I'm scared that the plane is going to...
I hate having an anxiety disorder. I was doing well for a bunch of months.I have been taking my meds, meditating, trying to live in the moment.Last few days my anxious brain is acting up.