I was doing really well up until May. My husband retired from the Air Force and we are trying to sell our home to move to PA for his new job. Just purchased a new home in PA and I am worried about finances right now with two mortgages if this home doesn't sell soon. I will have to move up there from here (VA) by mid Sept. I cannot work now due to the physical symptoms of the anxiety/panic disorder. I am leaving my daughter behind for the first time (she is 21 in college here), and my disabled sister who shares an apartment with my mom. They need each others income, SSI and disability to live as they do which is comfortable but that's it. Mom was diagnosed with Alzheimers last year and is declining mentally rapidly. I feel guilty leaving them here. I know I won't have much time to be with Mom while she still has some wits about her. My sis with her physical limitations is doing the best she can but it won't be long Mom will need full time professional care, i.e., nursing home. Which will be a state run facility as we don't have the finances, nor does she to put her in a nice private place. I FEEL SO HELPLESS AND GUILTY FOR LEAVING THIS AREA. I know this if effecting my anxiety, plus not being able to work I worry about finances too, also two kids in college. I am at my wits end. I am on zoloft and xanax, the depression and panic is better but the anxiety is hell. I have lost 30 lbs. in since being diagnosed in January. I have to make myself eat. My husband doesn't understand what I am going through. He wants to know when I will get better..we need the income. So I am constantly worried about this too. I am ready to just give up, I hate my life right now.
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