I am scared of everything! Healthwise I feel like I am falling apart and I am young. Any new symptom and I think it is the absolute worst disease or I am dying. If I am stopped at a cross walk I think about the bus coming down the street and that it is probably going to hit me and kill me. I think of dying daily. I think of loved ones dying daily. I cry daily. My whole body tingles. My feet and hands go to sleep all of the time and I think the absolute worst, although I had an MRI two years ago to rule out anything serious. I can't take medication (SSRI's) because they affect my liver (rare side affect). I feel empty, scared, and out of control at times. I feel like I am going crazy. I have tried most things to try cope, but all has failed. I am desperate for relief. My poor children and husband do not deserve this.
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