Every year at this time, I seem to make these huge life altering mistakes. These mistakes hurt my husband very much. I feel evil and very childish and irresponsible. Its like clockwork, and I have talked to my councellor about it, but not in great detail. I dont want to blame it on my mental illness, because at a certain point a person must take responsibility for their actions. It just seems like when I get manic and anxious, I fall into my old ways. I cant go into the details of what I have done because it is humiliating... although, I am sure that there are people out there that have done the same thing. I will write about it if someone asks about it in a message. I just need alot of support right now, and a good pep talk. Thanks