Things are really stressing me out lately. I cant seem to handle anymore stress. I keep thinking of suicide and ways to hurt myself. I put a lot of pain killer pills in my room. Thinking of maybe using them some time. I think things would be a lot better for everyone if I was dead. My doctor does not know I think about suicide or anything really. I just dont think I have a future. Sorry if any spelling gets messed up. I have a learning disability. I dont know how to feel better and I dont like to upset people when im not doing well. I just feel depressed and mad all the time. I dont want to take it out on others so I try to take it out on myself. My ocd and gad gets to me a lot to. My parents just dont seem to understand how I feel or why I feel the way I feel. My problems started in my 3rd year of high school and then the depression started my first year of college. Im 20 now but still feel depressed and suicide seems more like a good idea when I get really depressed. I dont what to end up in a hopstial or anyone calling the cops. Im to scared to talk to a doctor so im not sure what to do. Can anyone help?
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