ive felt lonely for sum months now, i guess it was sort of my choice. after gettin suspended 4rm college for a semester,my bf breakin up wit me,no job, certain friends stab me in the bac(again), i fell into a great depression an had to move back wit my parents(i was posed to graduate dis may 09') an i turned off my cell an cut my friends off cuz they dont wanna hear my troubled mind all the time. now all i got is dis site an tv,food,sleep. hurts alot...im tryin to figure out wha i wanna do wit my life an how to go about doin it but my anxiety holds me bac along wit my depression.my parents culture is very religion based an believe wen ur depressed u pray an get bac to wha u were doin. they dont believe its an illness. they still think i can snap out of it. sumtimes i wonder how my parents aint in da same state of mind im in cuz they lost both they parents. i loved granny from moms side cuz she helped raise me 4 sum time but went bac to nigeria by the time i hit pubrty(sp) so her death didnt really change me. i wish i was strong like my parents but its not like im doin this on purpose. i really miss my old self...
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