Yesterday I had one of the worst days of anxiety ever. From the time I woke up to the time I went to bed and after I was absolutely scared stiff, I've no reason to feel like it but I did. It was a horrible day, it dragged, I paniced throughout the day, it never stopped. When it was eventually bed time, I was still panicing, it did calm a little but only a little. I was awake last night for hours on end.
However this morning I feel a little better, I'm calmer today but part of me is wondering why my anxiety seems worse when both my disabled daughter and my husband are at home at the same time. Emma goes to a day care centre twice a week, Gareth goes out and about during the days, me I am stuck at home when Emma is here because he is unable to lift her when she slumps down and is unable to sit herself back up. Or she cant get of the chair. He has tried but he just cant due to a back problem. Which means its a lot on me, I dont see anyone much except Gareth and Emma. I've one friend. Who is busy with her now grown up family and we hardly see each other. I've asked her over a few times but she doesnt seem interested anymore. I've no opportunity to meet people. I'm just so lonely on occasions I had a busy social and work life but now hardly anything. (Emma is 23years old)
In June, I am going to be going on a trip to Florida with my mom and brothers and we are getting there by plane and I'm really nervous about that. I've only flown on a plane one other time and I was 2 years old and I don't remember anything about it. The thought about being in a giant metal bird going who knows how high up into the air terrifies me. Also, I'm scared that the plane is going to...