I'm out instacarting today. I read in the news that they are building warehouses and will have robots auto fill orders phasing all us shoppers out. I was doing good before my surgury but it seems as I was out for a month recovering alot of changes happened and they went to alot of Shop Only orders which means I'm making half of what I was. I can see they are slowly phasing things out. My brother is so desperate to get out of where he is, he accepted a 30,000 offer on the house hes in. He now thinks he is going to rent a house with his adult son and share the rent. I reminded him that be needs to find something he can afford in case the son leaves. He wont listen. I reminded him he will have to pay taxes on that 30,000 leaving him only around 20,000. Its burning a hole in his pocket. Lastly, I reminded him I cant bail him out of situations in the future financially. Once the money's gone, it's gone.
Roomie is depressed. He sleeps most of the day. He said yesterday he needed more men friends to talk to...I told him that he needs to get out and meet some. Just like I need to get out and meet people. Between him not talking and having noone else other than this site, I have noone to confide in.
Honestly, sometimes I think itd be best if we both had some space. But I don't know what I'd do with Sammycat. I'd have to sleep in my car for awhile as I have very little money saved. With this IRS thing looming over me, I cant do much. If they come back with a payment I can't afford, I dont have any other option. I either pay rent or pay them. I am hoping the company I paid 1500.00 negotiates the cost down. Till then, i just wait.
I feel like I'm always waiting....waiting for love, waiting for my daughter to reach out, waiting to be let go at work, waiting for the bottom to fall out....
On a happy note..I have straight teeth now. They put a crown on the front tooth as it was slightly crooked and now I have perfect front teeth. I'm amazed and happy I was able to find a way to have this done. I wish I had had it done10 years ago but noone ever gave me that as an option.
I feel invisable.
Has anyone else experienced spiritual growth after a particularly dark period in their life? The term has its roots in Christianity but it's not restricted to it. I believe more now in a higher power and prayer but it's a personal thing. You can have more than one, especially if you resist the insights of the first one or relapse. I'm going through this again and it's helping so much with my...