I am new to the group and this is my first post. I have a history of anxiety and depression that goes back to my twenties, or maybe earlier. I have been going through a really rough divorce for the past 3 years. It’s nearly over. I have a 7 year old son whom I share 50/50 custody with my ex-wife.
I was recently able to buy my ex wife out of the house we owned together. I have also begun dating a very lovely young woman, and have a lot of really positive things going on in my life. On the surface, I have achieved many of the goals people most commonly associate with a happy successful life. I have a nice home, cars, etc. Yet, almost daily I struggle with debilitating anxiety that cripples my ability to be present, positive, and optimistic.
I recently stopped taking my SSRI medications because I’ve tried so many of them and all of them have caused me to have urination and ejaculation problems. I think coming off the medication (Its been 3+ weeks now) is part of the problem. I do have some rescue medication (Ativan) that I take on occasion if my anxiety gets really severe.
I’ve been reading and participating in a couple of books based upon Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. I like the idea because I realize that often much of my anxiety stems from negative thinking, irrational beliefs/fears, thinking about past failures and regrets, and fear of what the future holds for me now that I am finally divorced.
I was wondering if anyone had any recommendations or resources online they found helpful? Any YouTube videos, books, webinars, or other resources that you personally have found helpful in changing the framing of your thoughts from negative to positive.
It has been 2 years since i first found out that my wife of 11 years cheated on me, i still am not over it and it consumes me, we are still together but things are not like they were when we first married and i know they say things change. I just dont know what to do, on one hand i can stay for my son and live in this hurt or i can leave but if i leave will it still consume me or will it be...
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