I have suffered from anxiety for almost 10 years but never have I experienced something like this. I was sitting in a restaurant one day and a story came on the news about how some teacher raped and killed one of her students. For some reason, I immediately panicked was thought what if I wanted to do that? I thought it was very weird and felt anxious over it but didn't dwell on it too much. Then a few days later I was in the car with my mom and she was on the phone with one of her friends, whose son I used to babysit. Somehow my mind came to the conclusion that I had sexually abused her son. I NEVER WOULD HURT A CHILD. Ever. So that also freaked me out but I knew it came from hearing the story on the news so I got over it pretty quickly. That was two months ago and I had completely forgotten about it. Then I was on a depression website and it said some people are depressed because of something they have done, like hurt or sexually abuse someone. BOOM. all my thoughts came flooding back. Even though I can honestly say I never did anything to that boy, my anxiety is making me second guess that and I feel as if I am about to lose touch with reality. Please someone help me. I feel as if I am the only person who has ever experience this. Any advice or insight would be so, so helpful.
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