had some social anxiety today. my best friend wanted to break with another girl. i froze - i was afraid i wouldnt be able to contribute anything to their conversations. i was afraid i would feel inferior around them. i was afraid they would talk about something i wasnt comfortable with. i was afraid i would look like an idiot. i told my best friend to go on without me. she asked me why i didnt go. i told her i was too anxious. she felt bad like she left me out. i told her it was my problem and she did nothing wrong. i am afraid my friend will abandon me cause of my social anxiety. this is not the first time this has happened.
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