I hit the snooze button several times this morning. I heard Sammy meowing for his treats and Lefty was waiting for hers too.
Received a text from brother this morning. He was in the ER with a diverticulitis flare up. I get angry because he does not pay rent and he has all these financial problems. He did say his ex had a gambling problem and I'm starting to wonder if he did too.
After tearing up his parents house now he wants to sell it. I want no part of that. It's bad energy. It's all bad timing. It's funny how you can put yourself hundreds of miles away and their lives still manage to affect yours.
My depression is terrible this morning. I fight with the idea of getting medicated again. I'm never quite in a high mode, it's always feeling nothing or depressed.
It's hard to function this way without feeling joy.
I feel like I'm drowning in my emotions. My depression is so overwhelming I feel like it's suffocating me. I also have severe anxiety. I am medicated but nothing seems to get rid of my symptoms. Medication has helped and I have talked to my doctor about changing things but she's very reluctant to do so. I'm afraid I'm not mentally here enough for my children and husband. I'm trying to find my...
I thought even though I stopped exercising a lot since the beginning of 2021, I was still at 260 (I gained a bunch of weight). Mostly because I can still be active and never really tired, still look the best I have in my whole adult life, and just always feeling good and better than I ever did. But, after seeing the doctor, she wants me to get back into exercising and lose this extra weight. Got...