Thank you all for the kind replies to my last post, I receive no kind of encouragement in my personal everyday life so it was awesome to be able to receive it here.
My sleep was very crappy this morning (I have not slept at night in I don't know how long)
However, for a few days, I was getting between 7-13 hours of sleep, nevertheless, it's always unrefreshing and fragmented and once I get tried again, it's terrifying and unbearable. My body becomes really heavy, my brain feels foggy, I start feeling as though I can't breathe, and as if I'm going to pass out. It's not a normal type of sleepy or fatigue, I try to lay down and it feels even worse, it's very uncomfortable to fall asleep when feeling this why. Furthermore, I don't even remember drafting off when I do finally go to sleep, I just wake back up. It's very scary and makes me not want to sleep.
We are still in lockdown even though parts of our state is beginning to open.The weather is good today. What else is positive?
Been married for 20 years. About 1.5 years ago i found out my wife had been texting a male non stop for several weeks. Claims nothing happen and said it was over, I forgave and moved on. About a month ago I found over 20 dating profiles of my wife online as well as chat transcripts where she exchanged nude pics and sex chat. I confronted her, told her I had the info and I just wanted the truth....