I'm nervous right now already about the next things coming up. Merry Christmas. But I'm having to take my mother who's been here, an hr and a half to the airport.. deal with all those people and then get myself safely back home. to being home alone for the first time in two weeks since I got out of the hospital. I'm really anxious about that. I'm having a hard time being out of my house alone or around more than one person without getting extremely anxious. At this point I don't see making it through tomorrow safely. Which hurts deeply that I'm like this now. I just want it all over...or better yet, not at all. After tomorrow then nervousness as I'm mostly alone, except for several dr appointment and finding out something important all by myself, and then I'll be completely alone for several days while the one I want here is out of state. I've got to face a lot of fears coming up that I really don't want to. I'm sick of this.
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