Hi everyone. My name is Madison. I'm new to daily strength. I've suffered with general anxiety and hypochondria for years. I also want to let you know, this may be a triggering post for anyone else who may have hypochondria.. so please stop reading if that's you.
Anyway.. I've been doing really really well for years. My anxiety was really debilitating when I graduated high school, to the point where I was deathly ill all the time and always in and out of doctors.. One day I just kind of snapped out of it and stopped letting it rule me.. While I was still mildly anxious all the time, I knew how to handle it and I felt relatively normal..
Well about two weeks ago that all went down the tubes.. I got a really bad ear infection and everything spiraled. Since then I've been to two urgent care centers and the ENT twice.. my ear infection I've been told is healed. But of course my overly negative brain doesnt believe it. I keep thinking all kinds of things are wrong with me.. and of course I havent been controlling my google and WebMD deep dives which to nothing but help me spiral into madness. Last night really took the turn to terrifying.. I was laying in bed and trying to sleep.. when I started to feel like I was going to die. Impending doom. I felt like I couldn't breathe. My chest was tight. I was utterly terrified. My breathing was shallow and I felt like my heart beat was weak.
I got up and tried to walk it off.. but hello google! I convinced myself it was a heart attack and suddenly the room was spinning and I thought I'd pass out. I went back into the bedroom to tell my husband and he instantly asked if we needed to go to the ER.. My first reaction was no.. no more doctors.. But as I laid there the feelings weren't going away and I was truly scared. So off we went.. Luckily everyone there was kind and seemed to take me seriously.. Even though I ended up shaking uncontrollably like some drug addict.. needle phobic me got my first ever iv and I didnt have a meltdown, so I guess that's a silver lining. Anyway, they took blood work, chest xray, and had me strapped to an ekg and blood pressure cuff for a few hours.. They also asked if they could give me mild anxiety meds because I was barely holding it together.. which I accepted. They ended up finding nothing alarming in my xray of my heart or lungs. My blood tests looked good, no evidence of clots or any obvious disease, good glucose all that.. I ended up leaving at 2 am with the doctor gently suggesting that it was a panic attack and to go see a family doctor for a full work up.. But truly, in my years of having anxiety I've felt nothing like that. Anyway, I got a little sleep because of the meds. But today I feel exhausted and when I lay down for a nap I start to feel all of the same things. Shallow breath. Weak heartbeat. Impending doom, feeling like I'm dying, feeling like I'll pass out.. its truly awful and now I dread bedtime.. But I'm also exhausted mentally and physically and really want rest.
Have any of you experienced anything like that? I want to believe the doctor that they didnt find anything truly alarming with me.. But I have a hard time when I'm again feeling the same way. Maybe it was in fact my first true and intense panic attack? And now I associate it with going to sleep so I'm feeling those things when I lay down? My poor husband is at a true loss as to how to help me or support me.. I feel really alone which doesnt help.
I need to find a good family doctor and therapist for sure.. But both of those things take a bit of time.. and I would really appreciate the support of people who even kind of get it. No one in my life has ever experienced debilitating anxiety like me.
I understand this is more of a hypochondria group post.. but their group is far less active than this one so I thought I'd try here.
I look forward to any and all advice you may have! And I look forward to getting to know you all.
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