this is very hard/weird to explain. some times i will be just hanging out with friends having a good time then i will do something just zone out or look at my cell phone or whatever and i get this cripping fear of reality .Like a switch is turned on and i am aware of my own exsitence in the world and it scares me for some reason and i feel trapped in my own body and i want it all to end then i start thinking about death and how i could go any second. i just feel like i am looseing my mind and that no one can help me. that is one of my biggest fears is to end up as one of those crazy people u see on the street or that are strapped to a bed in some hospital.And thinking that i am going crazy makes me think that i must be crazy if i think i am going to become crazy its a very bad cycle i put myself through. i just wish i could just push all those feeling and thoughts away and enjoy the precious gift that is life.But i am just scared that i wont be strong enough to make it and that i keep picturing a horrible future for myself and theres is nothing i can do about it.Am i going crazy? any advive or comment would be helpful.
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