I think that I have had an problem suddenly.
Story is way to long to fully state all at once. Basics go like I am deaf and a caretaker for wife of 60 years. I have always had a problem meeting new people especially large groups. I am not a joinner. Many times after becomming aware that a person is deaf people will just cut me out of talk, even though I am very good at lip reading and can read from a distance. I can read lips in the old silent movies. ( they are often talking about something else than what wording notes).
Most of my time is spent alone.
About a week ago my wife and I were at the market, suddenly I told her that I felt so overwhelmed that we had to leave. Made me know that I really had a problem.
I have struggled with anxiety on and off since I was a teenager...as an adult, the occasions became more frequent. However, the last year and a half it feels like I'm getting lost in it. Sometimes I feel like I'm fighting to breathe because I'm being crushed and suffocated under all of the uncontrollable feelings of dread for what may happen. Rationally, I know that these are all "what ifs" and...
I'm a caregiver for my husband, and also help my mother, and mil. Husband has been disabled for 13 yrs. Can't walk well, uses a cane. Refuses to use a wheelchair ever. Aside from the legs cramping and/or shaking, he gets back pain some times. Past week an old shoulder injury flared up. Dr. told him in the past that they couldn't do surgery on it. I suggested he go see our Dr. but he complained...