I am new to this website and support group. I know my Mom was on here when my Stepdad passed away but not sure how it worked out for her. I have had anxiety since 2002 when the following events occured: My Dad (whom I hadn't spoken to in years) committ suicide and I found out he had HIV; I got pregnant at 18, graduated high school, didn't go to college, etc. So all of the stress I believe started my anxiety. Since then it's been an uphill battle. It began to get better after I had my second son. I still had anxiety just not as severe as before. After my stepdad passed away suddenly in Dec 06, my anxiety took a complete left turn and here I am. I limit myself the places I go, usually not farther than 30 min from home. I don't ride in other peoples cars, and become nervous if others have to ride with me (control issue?). The simple things in life I used to enjoy are now what seem to be impossible tasks. Such as flying, (no way!) taking my kids to the zoo, going to sporting events or concerts, all out of the question. Achieveable but not without panic/anxiety. My Husband got 6 tix to tonight preseason football game, yet thanks to my little (big) issue, I won't be joining them, which pains me as I LOOOVE football. My Husband's company also hosts many fancy/shmancy dinners that I have yet to attend. I'm starting to think his boss thinks I'm a weirdo. Anyway, just wanted to vent. I really want to get over this crap man. I'm so tired of it. I want to live freely!
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