I called a therapist before I left for vaca. He called me back while I was away. I have fleeting feelings of "I'm ok I don't need therapy." Then suddenly I'm back to having anxiety and I'm like "I forgot how bad this feels I need help." It seems like everytime I pick up the phone to call him. I talk myself out of it. I know I need help. Again, I just feel like I'm giving into the anxiety by asking for it. Like I should be able to conquer this on my own. UGGGHHH. I will try to call him back today. I know I need to go. I've been making excuses for a long time
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