Merry christmas everyone. These last few days have been really bad- I have been so anxious, my chest has been so heavy and I can cry about anything. I pushed myself to NY the other day and to my families today. I was going to go back to VA where I live, but I called out of work to stay here and finally get some help. Only problem is my BF is in VA and we were going away with his friends for New Years. I just cannot see myself driving 4 hours to sit in a cabin in the middle of nowhere for days. I told him that and he said we don't have to go- but we already paid $200 and I feel AWFUL because he wanted to go sooooo badly. How do I make myself realize it is ok and not to feel guilty and miserable about it....
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