I think I just had a panic attack WHILE posting in the depression forum. One of the worst ones I've had in a while. Didn't really ever think they were panic attacks until recently but it got to the point where I could hardly breath. I think I figured it was just me depressed and finally releasing all my bottled up emotions. 99% of the time I CANNOT cry even if I'm sad and want to then all of a sudden its like I lose it completely and freak out. I cannot live this way anymore but I'm too afraid to get help. I wouldn't even know where to start and I'm too afraid to ask someone for help and I don't know why. I KNOW my mom would understand. My brother and dad have both gotten help for it so why can't I just talk to her??? My problem is that once this horrible feeling lessens its like I forget how bad it gets.
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