
Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
I go to my kids functions and it is hard. If I have to get up and leave for a bit I do. Nothing I can do about it. If I had some other illness that prevented me from doing normal things people would still judge me for not doing things like they do.
I read your profile. You mention that your hormone levels are twice their levels and you're undergoing some kind of study. Can you share more detail?
Mine did not "burst" until I began perimenopause. However I had just turned 40 and drs thought me too young. After two years of "HELL", menopause was over for me, and my FSH levels were twice that of a normal post-menopausal woman which is rare; however, according to my dr, there was nothing medically wrong to cause those levels.
Do you know more than me? What kind of study? And are you going thru menopause?
No menopause, just I believe it is the testosterone that is double. First they thought PCOS but that was ruled out. They are doing a complete endocrinology workup. I find out more Thursday and Friday this week if I'm lucky. I would rather have something wrong than be told that they have no clue.
I do know that I've had anxiety since childhood just from the way my family describes me when I was little. However, it did not interfere with my day-to-day living until the menopause cycle started. When that began, everything just went ballistic.
That's why, sort of like you, I believe that is is somehow all related, but all my medical tests have been done. They could not find any medical reason.
I had bizarre high blood pressure that they also could not find a medical reason for and bp meds would not lower it. My bp did not lower until I was sent to a pdoc and he placed me on klenopin. I take no bp med.......... my klenopin keeps my bp down.
I "guess" i hope they find something "medical" wrong with you if that's what you want, but I hope it's something easy to cure.
But if not, unfortunately you will be like me, wondering what happened, how it happened, and the worse yet, you're going to have to accept it and acceptance for me was the hardest. I've always said how can a highly paid detailed oriented database analyst go to bed one night at 40 and wake up a totally disoriented, scatterbrained, panic stricken, anxiety mess.
As many drs as I've seen, no one has been able to answer that question. And yes, my kids did pay the price those years. I was off the wall and didn't know why. But my kids were teenagers. I am single so there was no husband for support and some family understand and others can't understand why I can't just control it.
I DO try to control it. I fight an inner batttle with myself everyday to control it. Sometimes I look at myself as Fred Flintstone. I remember as a kid watching him and he would have a little devil on one shoulder and a little angel on the other and they would be fighting. That's how I see myself sometimes.
I attended all my kids' things in school because it did not effect me then like it does now. If I were then like I am now, no way, no how. I do "treat" myself sometimes and FORCE myself to go somewhere that I don't want to go. Sometimes I do fine (but I always sit near a door), and other times I do not. I went out with a friend last weekend. The first place we went I was fine. It was "open" and well lit and not extremely crowded. I never thought of anxiety or panic. I had a blast. We left there and went to another place that was not only crowded, but dark. We sat in a booth (huge mistake) and somehow I ended up on the inside near the wall. Within 5 minutes, I am pushing a friend out of the way and headed for the restroom (which I didn't know where it was) and started splashing cold water on my face. I could not breathe. I tried so hard to catch my breath. I looked in the mirror and said, "You can do this". No, I couldn't. I made my way outside where it was FREEZING and there were tables out there. I just sat in a chair in the freezing cold breathing in the cold air. THe girls I came with came out to see what happened (they do not know of my condition). They thought I had too much to drink....... ha.......... I only drank gingerale. I just ask them if they could please get my coat and keys as I had to leave.
Why are we so ashamed of this thing? We can't help it. I didn't ask for it to happen.
Didn't mean to write a book but I just hope you are prepared. I hope results come back as you want them to.............. but if they don't, then you're going to have to start getting a handle on it and accept it's not "medical".
But I will say an extra prayer for you that it will be medical and something simple. Please keep me posted.
You don't have much time............. HURRY!