Hi everyone! I am new to this website and new to this group. I have struggled with drepression for the majority of my life. A few years ago, my anxiety got worse and became a much bigger issue for me. So much that I often struggle to leave the house, in fear that I may have to meet new people, experience new things. I often tell myself I'm staying at home because I'm having a self-care day, or that it's okay to stay inside. I tell myself "don't be so hard on yourself" and excuse my behavior. However, I have just moved to a new state, with my boyfriend, after almost a year of long-distance. Thinking this change would be good for me, I have already grown terrified of job hunting (walking into an unfamiliar place, being vulnerable, finding something fulfilling and worthwhile) and I'm nervous to walk around and explore the area. What's worse is that I'm afraid my partner will eventually grow tired of my fears and excuses. We have a wonderful and loving relationship, but I can't imagine how annoying I can be at times.
It's nice to know I'm not alone in how I'm feeling, but anxiety and depression can be so isolating. Anyways, thanks for reading and understanding.
Hello everybody, back after many years, hope everybody is hanging in this AM. Inpatient at hosp for foot infection, have untreated kidney cancer now for last 2 yrs. Woke up at 4 AM. All by my myself, have an older brother out of state but we don't get along, on social security now, think I would feel better if I had people to talk to again, i have a BS in social work, hope I can help people...