Who else gets so anxious when they feel unheard? I just want to scream at the top if my lungs but that has never gotten the point across & makes matters worse. But of course I have my moments I can't bite my tongue & say things I regret.
I keep repeating myself and feel unheard by the people who should hear my voice and understand me the most. After many years and much hard work I am on a batter path that many see, including my medical professionals. But it is only like family is threatened by me being so independent and my own person finally even though they have been my biggest supporters on my path to a healthier, happier life. But I always have been in what has felt like a codependent atmosphere while being an independent free spirit I have long been trying to distance from. So now that I have this capability to be more active and do things that make my soul happy, I feel very controlled by those who claim they want the best for me. But it seems like they only want it if it involves them. They feel left out too but that is also their own doing as we have different life interests, and they are willing to compromise.
I am experiencing this with some of my closest family members. I feel I have to over explain myself and give them valid examples of why I am trying to get them to understand my POV.
Especially when their is a generational gab which normally isn't an issue but finding so in their dislike for the concept of UBER or technology.
I am the youngest of six children and for some reason it was up to me solely to take care of my mother when she had cancer and died slowly and painfully.. and my father who had congestive heart failure and dies slowly and painfully. ..Now that they're both gone my oldest sister wants me to step into that role of me taking care of her and spending half of my life taking care of her...
It's a good thing to have this outlet/community to get support for facing life. I'm currently working at a front desk job and it's not too stressful. But just being around other people makes me tense and anxious. I notice that I'm okay when I'm by myself but once I get around others, I start to feel my stomach tighten and my gait change. I don't know what I'm supposed to do because all I want is...