Been having a really hard time this past year. I've always been a little worried and paranoid throughout my life, but full out anxiety seems to have suddenly grasped me and I'm having a very very hard time dealing with it. There's a new scenario I worry about every week, stupid things that really don't matter but my mind just goes in circles about it for the entire day or even week. Worrying so often and so much + my rather poor lifestyle has caused bad health problems as well, which then puts me in a vicious cycle of health-related anxiety that doesn't stop until I can be assured by a doctor that I'm ok.... and even then sometimes it continues. The physical side effects and the anxiety itself are killing me and as much as I try, I seem to be doing bad at managing it. I want to try and try but I feel like I'm losing hope for it really getting better. I'm scared I'll just be in pain for the rest of my life and literally torturing myself mentally daily...
I'm simply going to cut calories out. Let's see if I can get my six pack back.
I feel so alone, I'm depressed, my anxiety is out of control and so many people don't bother with me anymore, I feel so useless and worthless.