Everytime I see a doctor they all tell me the same thing.. Anxiety but I refuse to believe it. I have experienced anxiety before but the symptoms I experience daily are far more extreme and physical than anxiety. I suffer from severe head pressure daily, the head pressure is so severe that it is causing debilitating brain fog. My memory is equivalent to a 93 year old woman with Alzheimer's and my cognition is slowly getting worse. I also suffer from severe derealization and I have a feeling that all my symptoms are tied to the head pressure. Sometimes the head pressure gets so severe that I begin to lose coordination, my vision gets blurry, and I break out into cold sweat. I am slowly losing my mind and with it my touch with reality. I have been suffering from this mystery diagnosis for over 6 months daily and I don't know how much longer I can go. I am not planning on committing suicide, not as long as my loved ones are alive. Sometimes I wish they weren't so I could go ahead and end my misery but as long as they are alive I am committed to staying alive and suffering. I also wish sometimes that I have a brain tumor or an aneurysm, anything as long as I have some kind of valid diagnosis and I know what's going on with me. This is not anxiety but some sort of undiscovered neurological condition. Anxiety is just a doctor's excuse for not knowing what your problem is. I wish for an answer daily, a diagnosis and some help. I don't look forward to life anymore, everyday is the same, I live my day one minute at a time and don't look ahead and don't look behind. I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel, and if I did I'd hope it was an incoming train. Hell is real and I am living it daily. Please help with advice / stories? Can you relate maybe and what is your advice? Thank you my Daily Strength Community.
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