Due to my anxiety disorder i have a very serious problem with insecurity. This causes the most problems in my romantic relationships. My current boyfriend is amazing and i am very deeply in love with him, however i think i my have irrevokably destroyed what we were building together. Bc of my insercutities i tend to "protect" myself by preparing for the worst. There are constant doubts circling in my mind and poisoning my heart breaking my trust even when my bf has done absolutely nothing wrong. My bf is diabetic and so often times does not feel very well. He has been very ill the past two weeks and in this time i have driven myself nuts to the point of almost driving him away. Sometimes i feel like im trapped in a dark corner of my mind helpless to do anything more than watch as my anxiety takes over throwing rational though out the window. Instead of being there for him when he needed me to be strong i convinced myself he was simply not interested in me anymore. i know how selfish this is. i could scream at myself to stop but still be helpless to actually knock it off.ive decided its time i find a way to work on myself (which is why today is my first day on daily strength)but i really need help finding a way to repair the damage i have caused and advice on how to stop being so overly sensative. :(
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