Nov 28th it happened i left my Cardiologyst and from that Am on in my head i heard the words from the 1 Nurse ( in 8/25/2002 i suffered froom a mild heart attack so they say ) and i went it for my routine follow up ect: and before this i smoked 2-1/2 Pcks a day but since 1994 i was put on the disabled List at the age of 32 do to a auto accident....1998 i was in a Go-Kart Accident..coumpound fractured my left knee & femur...But any way when i left the Drs office that day i dwelled all day about her last words as i left her Office( she was the nurse of my Dr ) yes i still smoked But? 10 to 12 cigs a day pending on the mood i was trying to whein myself off\'em her words to me which i thought was un Professional \"IF YOU DONT QUIT YOUR GOING TO DIE\" in a very cocky irogant way she said it,well that put more fear into me well that night i was rudley awking from a dead sleep about 1 AM and my Body felt it was dying , my mind was going wild thinking this is it im going ,.... i was on the phone with my Family dr that Morning , she told me to come in ASAP.. i told her my symptoms and she said you had an Anxiety attack well i felt like crap she gave me medications Lexapro & Activan, all weekend tho i layed around the house ( mind you i walk with a cane )and that wasnt me so she told me the one would make feel feel gooder right way and it did ..well next thing you know 2 weeks went by and i was having more issues with Anxiety heart racing ..breathing issues ..ect: ..i was scared out of mind But to make a Long story short, i try\'d lexapro,Activan, effexor, wellbutrin,Zoloft, and then a Miracle someone i know sent me samples of Klonopin ..2 mnths Later i took 1 and i felt Normal for a change i felt like me so off the Antidepresents , But my Doc said with my disablity i was depress\'d so she said try taking 30mg (2 mnths ago)...i did with in a week taking Klonopin and cymbalta i even felt greater but at the begining i lost weight about 15 lbs then a month ago i Blew up Like a damn Balloon rapidly i went from 230Lbs to 267 lbs ..Now that im stuck withi stopped the cymbalta cold turkey Very Mild withdraw effects, Now im stuck with this extra weight i have no clue how to get it off and? also just recently my left leg femur < the Rod they put in in 1997) just had recently Broke in 7/31/2006 and had it replaced 8/07/2006 and on 10/31 i was dignosed threw a endoscopy with Gastritis & H.Pylori..and all that? is from all the medications i am on But i have healed my chin up high and told my self this is Life this my experiance and i pray everyday to god to heel me faster ...Barr
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