I agonized all day yesterday about having to get up again in front of 60+ people and reading the minutes that I wrote for the previous meeting of this organization that I belong to. I have a 2 year stint and go through this every month. I hope it will get better but when the time approaches I start to get terrified. Anyway, I got through it last night and to my surprise one of the members of our organization came up to me and complimented me on the marvelous job I am doing. Obviously, she isn't getting a sense of what is going on inside of me. Anyway, this is good because it gives me more confidence for next time. The easy way out is for me to quit this position, but I am determined for anxiety not to win, and I feel this is the only way to do it. Does anyone else out there face their fears head on?
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