I was wondering if anyone else ever gets this way. I always have the best intentions of doing things, but then I end up getting all anxious about it and don't end up going. Then I end up mad at myself for letting the anxiety get the best of me, and that just makes the anxiety worse. Like today I wanted to go to church tonight. But since I have gotten home from work I have felt like I have this lump in my chest, and I feel like I can't catch my breath. Like a panic attack is right around the corner. I tried taking a warm bath that usually works, I resorted to taking an Ativan, but now I am kinda groggy. Now I am so mad at myself, I can't just make it go away. But I just wish I was stronger. I miss being able to do everything I want.
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