I just read through your profile you are so accomplished and obviously a "giver". If I were in your position, I would probably feel the same way you do. Actually, I don't know how I would survive it, frankly. From an outsider's perspective, though, I can't help but wonder if there isn't more left for you in life. I doubt recovering from your experience will be an easy feat, and I'm sure it will be an ongoing process, but I have a funny feeling you are the type of person that can recover. I wouldn't be surprised if you were to help others get through similar experiences. What do you think?

Anyway, it's great that you are reaching out those that spend their lives helping others certainly deserve the same in return.

Hey Brad,
Are there any local clubs, or groups that you can join that would offer you friendships and understanding in person? Do you have any friends from the military that you can visit, or that can visit you? What else? Can you take the bus someplace to volunteer help to others? A library, a school, or even a retirement home? Listen, I bet kids at schools would love to hear your stories. Even at public libraries, you'd be the local hero. Check into your options...especially since you're computer savvy, I'm sure you can find out many options to help you feel not so lonely. Do you have any friends or family around besides your brother? Well, we're here for you. Take Care.