Anxiety Support Group
Anxiety is a physical condition marked by intense and persistent feelings of distress, fear, angst or dread. General anxiety caused by routine day-to-day stresses usually passes quickly and is experienced by almost everyone at one time or another. However, such feelings that linger over time and are very difficult to cope with, and which lack a clear cause, may indicate...
Hi All,
I had my 5th (?) pdoc appointment last night and once again had a meltdown. He brought his chair close to mine and gently told me that I have to accept the fact that I don't just have anxiety and PA disorder but that I have "Moderate Depression" and he believes I have had it at some level almost my entire life. I was such a mess I couldn't stop crying, couldn't catch my breath, felt like my head would explode and couldn't stop shaking. He told me that I HAVE TO START AN AD IMMEDIATELY, even if I don't like the idea...even if I'm scared. Because I am alone he wants me to go stay with someone for a week while I start the Lexapro so that it will give me some security knowing someone is there if I need them to be...and to keep an eye out just to monitor my behavior. I don't really have any family (my son lives with me but he's in college and works 2 jobs...he's never home) close by so I am having to stay with a friend who really doesn't hold much respect for doctors of any kind. I wonder if I would just be better staying alone....but that thought terrifies me and I am afraid if I do that then I wont be comfortable enough to take the med. He also said I should not be trying to get off the Ativan right now at all because I am not in the right place for it. So I took one when I was in his office and I felt better before I left.....I went home, showered and fell asleep for a couple hours but then woke up and was agitated again...I was moving my bedroom furniture around at midnight! I turned on the all music station on the TV and found the "new age" channel...it was very relaxing and after awhile I fell asleep again...but woke up 30 minutes later shaking uncontrollably and I don't think I have ever been so cold. I was in think fuzzy pj's and under a sheet, a thick fuzzy blanket and a down comforter and was freezing! After a half hour or so the shaking subsided and I fell asleep again. I got up and went for a walk before leaving for work this morning so right now I don't feel miserable but I certainly don't feel good. I am thinking a starting a "Lexapro Journal" to keep track of how I feel every day.....question is...since I am all aone....would you all mind keeping an "eye" out for me here? Read my daily Journal entries and let me know how you all think I'm doing? I know it will be hard over the net....but....it might help me feel less alone.
I had my 5th (?) pdoc appointment last night and once again had a meltdown. He brought his chair close to mine and gently told me that I have to accept the fact that I don't just have anxiety and PA disorder but that I have "Moderate Depression" and he believes I have had it at some level almost my entire life. I was such a mess I couldn't stop crying, couldn't catch my breath, felt like my head would explode and couldn't stop shaking. He told me that I HAVE TO START AN AD IMMEDIATELY, even if I don't like the idea...even if I'm scared. Because I am alone he wants me to go stay with someone for a week while I start the Lexapro so that it will give me some security knowing someone is there if I need them to be...and to keep an eye out just to monitor my behavior. I don't really have any family (my son lives with me but he's in college and works 2 jobs...he's never home) close by so I am having to stay with a friend who really doesn't hold much respect for doctors of any kind. I wonder if I would just be better staying alone....but that thought terrifies me and I am afraid if I do that then I wont be comfortable enough to take the med. He also said I should not be trying to get off the Ativan right now at all because I am not in the right place for it. So I took one when I was in his office and I felt better before I left.....I went home, showered and fell asleep for a couple hours but then woke up and was agitated again...I was moving my bedroom furniture around at midnight! I turned on the all music station on the TV and found the "new age" channel...it was very relaxing and after awhile I fell asleep again...but woke up 30 minutes later shaking uncontrollably and I don't think I have ever been so cold. I was in think fuzzy pj's and under a sheet, a thick fuzzy blanket and a down comforter and was freezing! After a half hour or so the shaking subsided and I fell asleep again. I got up and went for a walk before leaving for work this morning so right now I don't feel miserable but I certainly don't feel good. I am thinking a starting a "Lexapro Journal" to keep track of how I feel every day.....question is...since I am all aone....would you all mind keeping an "eye" out for me here? Read my daily Journal entries and let me know how you all think I'm doing? I know it will be hard over the net....but....it might help me feel less alone.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
The important thing is to learn to manage your stress and anxiety so you can prevent it. Maybe you can find a good support group in your area to meet with.Some days, I think mine will never end and I'll feel like this forever. But in my heart, i know better than that. Take some peace in knowing that there are literally millions of people just like you--you are not alone! Good luck, keep on going, and my best wishes.
delilah