I am a first year optometry student. I was diagnosed w. anxiety and depression 5 yrs ago when I started undergrad at a university. I have been on zoloft since then. I have been doing well the past 4 yrs and was able to get a Biology degree despite my anxiety. However, I'm starting to notice some symptoms again when I started optometry school. Sometimes when I perform an ocular procedure (like today) in front of the professor, I make lots of mistakes, that I hadn't made just practicing on friends. I make alot of stupid mistakes. And it takes me longer to do things lately. Lately I'm more forgetful, unsure of myself, sad, and worried about every little thing. I don't share my ideas and opinions as much in group settings because I'm scared people will laugh or not agree with me. I don't go out as much either. I do have some friends here but they told me they don't like seeing me sad so much. I don't know why sometimes I blank out and forget to do things when people such as my professors are watching me perform a task. It's kind of like sometimes I don't even think about what I'm doing when people are watching me,because I freeze up. I just do something and then I realize I made a mistake. And I don't understand lately why sometimes when I talk to people, (sometimes even my friends) I lose my train of thought mid sentence. It really makes me feel retarded. Is this all due to my anxiety? And should I take more zoloft? I really want to be an optometrist some day, and I don't want my condition to get in the way of that. Help
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