hi - to cut a long story short read my profile and look at PCOS community - it explains most of my physical symptoms. Except a few others. I have a cyst on my right but get pain in my left. In my back, there's a long muscle which is hard all the way down; my hip, leg and bowels on that side all hurt. It's a constant pain like a trapped nerve or something inside my hip and now I have found this lumpy thing near my bone just near the end of my back. It is on the bone and isn't really 'lump' shaped but is lumpy. It is similar to the otherside but bigger and I am worrying that it's a tumour or the long term symptoms of what I thought was a brain tumour ages ago but is getting worse. Now I believe I have cancer all over my body and it numbs me and parylises me so much to think about talking about it I remain in silence. I used to always want reassurance, always go to the doctors and had BAD hypochondria - now I think I am really dying and there's no point in doing anything if I won't live. help me please. What is wrong? Is there any women out there who can help me or relate? I can't cope with this. I think about it everyday from the moment I wake to the moment I sleep. Even though I don't 'panic' I wonder whether it's me so used to anxiety that I tolerate it, or it really is all happening and my gut is right. I have had gut feelings before that came true and this scares me. I am battling with 'yes' and 'no' all the time and I wonder if I am right, although I thought I was dying last time I wasn't - but my mind has blocked that experience out and it is frustrating.
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