I had panic attacks in 1997. They stopped without meds and without a therapist. They started again at the end of 2006 and I've been having them off and on since. I have a cognitive behavorial therapist and that helps but clearly I'm still getting them. I know the only way for them to go away is to stop fearing that they will come back but that is hard. I have agoraphobia - meaning I am afraid to leave my comfort zone. Travel too far from home, stay away from home. I hate flying. Hate it. I smoke. So I'm afraid of going into situations where I won't be able to smoke. I hate being afraid of myself and scared. And I can't sleep and eating is a chore - I feel like the walking dead. I'm not on any meds but am thinking about starting Zoloft. But I'm terrified of taking any meds. I'm having trouble with this particular panic cycle. I can let it go for periods in the day but then keep checking myself to see if I'm ok or "fine" and bring them back. It's hard to distract and stay present focused. I feel like I'm a fairly happy person if I could just get over the panic or stop thinking about it forever. Suggestions? Support? I feel lost and beaten down.
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