So my mom had been financially irresponsible with her money. I’m not sure what she has spent it on but she is trying to get a loan so she doesn’t over draft her account. She is storming around the house and crying because she has no money and can’t get a loan. I am not in a position to help her. I’ve given my parents $300 this month already for groceries etc. I live with them. I spent a great deal of money on Christmas gifts and a few things for myself. I’m hiding packages as they coke in so mom doesn’t know I’m spending money. My bills are paid though and I shouldn’t have to hide purchases from her but I don’t want to flaunt that I can afford to buy things when she is going broke. I’m stressed now because mom is stressed and I’m an empathetic person. I guess I’m just venting but moms stress really affects me.
Right now, the anxiety is so bad it is a full blown attack. I can't think or breath or move and my mind won't let him go away.I caan't take much more. My narcopath husband of 2 decades is still in my head and I can't get past it. My inner child just screams constantly and is terrified. I have a master's degree in counseling and have my own business now about this kind of abuse recovery and yet ...
i consider overthinking to be a specialty of mine. especially at night. i can't concentrate on anything other than my thoughts and they usually make me feel terrible about myself or others that i care about. does anyone have any suggestions on how to calm my mind down? i've tried different podcasts, soothing music, journaling and sleeping with a tv show on.