So today I realized something. I will not let anxiety and panic attacks control my life anymore. I refuse to. If I am afraid of an anxiety attack, I will do it anyways. I refuse to sit back and be afraid of them. If they happen so what, yah they suck and they are uncomfortable and frankly make you miserable, but that is all they do. They will not hurt me and I always make it through them, always. I am just tired of sitting in the house waiting for one to come. I refuse to be scared of them anymore, they always pass and I am always fine. I love life and I have a great life and I will not give up things that I want for the anxiety. I will not let it rule my life. And basically that is what I have been doing. I believe God will help me, and if I get one I will pray. The reasons I have more anxiety attacks is because in my head I am constantly worring about them and what they could do for me and should I go here I might have one. No more, of I have one I will get through it, but it will not rule my life anymore. It has ruled my life for way to long. God and I will rule my life and decide what I do, not damn anxiety attacks. I am not going to loose money from not working, loose my boyfriend from pushing him away because of my anxiety, or anything I want out of life. Life is too short and to beautiful to not take everything that is has to their advantage. Who is with me?
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